I’m in a particularly black mood today. The kind of day I want to cake on black eye liner, smash a lipstick into my mouth, and tamper with the over the counter cold medications at the old age home I’m FORCED to volunteer at. Juvie. Don’t ask.
Really old people smell like pee, cooked cabbage, dust and old pennies… coppers as my Nana use to call them. I don’t recall Curtis smelling like that, but those were different circumstances.
Some of the old bags at the home try to cover it up with lavender, lilac and rose, but they only end up smelling like a funeral home. The old men try to cover it up with scotch while trying to grab my boobs as I’m spoon-feeding them their cream corn. They get that desperate old man horny look, imaging that their wieners would actually work. Mr. Johnston actually took his out one time, mashed potatoes and cream corn smeared all over his mouth and chin. It was like a tug of war with a gummy worm. I pinched it really hard to make him put it away and then he peed himself. Dumbass.
I used to like to bury things when I was younger. I particularly liked to bury things at construction sites, especially when they dug up roads. I would sneak down in the middle of the night and bury my treasure in the dirt that a bulldozer had dug up, among the water mains they were repairing, or the sewage pipes. It always gave me a thrill to see them pouring concrete, sealing it in until some future construction workers came to repair the exact same pipe and came across my box, all ravaged by being buried for years. They would all huddle around it, and point, and discuss and smoke their cigarettes.
I always buried curses; homemade voodoo dolls with pins stuck in them, torn up bible pages, pages and pages of symbols I would write with cranberry juice, thinking it would look like it was written in blood when it was discovered. I can picture those construction workers finding those old wooden jewelry boxes, all excited, thinking they were finding some old biddies’ pearls or a mob diamond stash, only to open the creaky lid and discover an ancient curse had been placed on them. Just like King Tut’s curse, they’d all die of heart attacks, or dysentery, or have an iron girder fall on them because they opened the box.
There’s one particular intersection in town where I buried one of my curses that has not been discovered yet. There’s lots of car accidents that happen at that intersection. I take full credit.
A few weeks after Curtis died I snuck out to his grave across town one night, dug a hole on top of his grave and put a Tupperwear with his gerbil, Flag (stupid name) in the hole. I figured if he heard his gerbil making its gerbil noises, maybe his ghost wouldn’t come back and haunt me.
Where’s my lipstick?